dvoa texas triangle trip

wow, the apartment is more than 2 weeks old and still a whirlwind of crap around the place. which doesn’t really bother me because the worst of it is done –all big furniture is in place, and only the little bits need to be placed and some rearranging of closet space, etc. but it’s sort of bumming me out as the goal is not to live here longer than 6 months, so if the place isn’t fully unpacked within a month, it’s like why bother at all?  lol. i’m so not a material wealth maintenance doer type person.

so, the trip–which for this last weekend was the distraction from finishing unpacking. Chad didn’t get off work as early as we’d have liked so ended up fighting rush hour traffic in Houston for hours. by some swing of grace or luck the dallas show was to go off late, as EA updated me as i sweated out houston traffic. when we …

March 10th, 2010

until we can figure out this food/air deal

[^ this partial (and as such, quite nonsensical) bill hicks quote comes to mind, though, as usual: seemingly random]

been thinking more about this working relationship conflict and all that nebulous stuff and several tings have occurred to me which i would like to jot down. though, thankfully, my mind does not go completely blank when i sit to recall and/or further explore ideas through writing via internet –as it does whenever i sit down to lined paper- who knows what will transfer to this snapshot format.

so… it’s a power struggle– or there are such tendencies afoot, because neither of us are satisfied with the relationship. or, we’ve each become dissatisfied with the relationship. as i try to look at what it is about her tone and criticism that bothers me, it’s this sense of the-way-the-world-works-dictate and hierarchical power schema, ultimatums. in contrast to a working network of equal beings. that said, for an ‘equal community’ there must be candor …

February 28th, 2010

subsistence is inexistant

[
^...so many good bits from SP>warlock^
...all that is pure, sure tonight, freeze in time.
shadows climb, distracting override.
instincts evolve[involved], over and over…
…
…resent that discontent.
sidestep.
define the state of things so far.
crazy things, soft spoken..override…
]

orrible fuckin day. havn’t felt this just bad/down/etc in i can’t rememebr how long -though it is lifting now, i suppose. i mean in years -like. just fucking horrible. like what’s the point and just another move to yet another apartment. what was the goal? there isn’t enough time in a day… etc, i’m thinking. or maybe it was trying to connect with meaning and order not very accessible from here. misery is the river of the world and all that. do not desire what is not necessary -think the trick is deciding what is necessary. the future is unwritten. write something. maybe it’s those horrible bc pills, maybe they’re just totally throwing my system out of whack having not been on any for so long. no, …

February 27th, 2010

hush, brain working

[^ SP quote, naturally]

omfg will someone pay me. it’s just one of those times when 5+ clients owe me for 1-3 weeks’ worth of work. i mean moving (colocating for 2 weeks too) took out a chunk and i’m working and workin (well again now, uh-hegm, with some 18 hour days), and don’t have time to unpack the frigging jumble pile of CRAP in the living room –that having been said, Squeebs was good enough to put in a few hours after his work last night and got quite a deal put away (into odd places I think have now order whatsoever, but the goal is not to live here longer than 6 months, so guess I won’t rearrange too much).

So, you get to know the something-for-nothing client pretty quick, and then there are the variations. This is a new breed, not a something-for-nothing, cuz clientX has forked over a lot of beans, yet do I not deserve to …

February 25th, 2010

moved

No wonder, I didn’t want to wake up and managed to sleep away most of yesterday: the fucking leftover moving madness, the roach stowaways, and the frigging endless amounts of work. So here goes another one of those ‘what I had for breakfast’ posts like a few weeks or was it months ago.

Woke up bright and early at 5 with Chad, then stayed in bed reading on the ipod until 8:30 Could.not.bring.self. to get up and deal with the mess. Chad, always empathetic (read ‘enabling’, mostly kidding), pointed out that moving over the weekend was not an easy task, and naturally we are somewhat drained, physically as well as other ways. Well, whatever the sources may be, all I wanted to do was sleep more, and I came up with about a zillion reasonable arguments for doing just that. It wasn’t until I spied myself deciding for the unconscious ‘oh I’ll get my way’ approach of just fucking …

February 23rd, 2010

Bella!

Set up a funnel trap with many delicious crickets, put delicious ctickets in terrarium moved near the suspected bella zone, all heated and water misted… Turned off all the lights, all music and other sounds, left for 4 or so hours, no Bella. No bella after all night either. Crickets are really good at dying, it turns out, about 2/5have died though they have food and non drownable moisture.

SO, the entire moving process switches to plan b, which is lesser from a number of angles. Internet was already turned off here, so i fancy all i can do is ipod blog over pinons connection. Gonna miss you pinon. Youve always been there for me when our connection is having trouble:P thank you for not securing your stuff.

Reserved the truck, and so plan b here we come. Not as much time for moving on plan b, but hey it will just get done that much sooner. The thing thats …

February 19th, 2010

master cleanse

today is day 5 on this master cleanse thing. check out therawfoodsite.com for instructions if you’re interested. I got more interested in trying juicing and more raw foods since reading the Gerson therapy stuff. I wanted to start juicing and take on the protocol for a true Gerson therapy regimen, but we’re almost out of this insect haven place, and the idea of busting out the juicer and coating all inner working parts with yummy fruit and vegetable juice (read ‘insect honeypot’) just doesn’t rub me the right way, so I figure fine, I’ll do the master cleanse thing first. Additionally, I’ve read and I can see it being true, that doing a cleanse or fast before going even-more-raw can make it much easier because fasting resets the body’s tastes and eliminates cravings from built-up toxins. So, anyway, it’s going quite well. I have to say that the site above and the book I ordered (all the info …

February 5th, 2010