dvoa texas triangle trip

wow, the apartment is more than 2 weeks old and still a whirlwind of crap around the place. which doesn’t really bother me because the worst of it is done –all big furniture is in place, and only the little bits need to be placed and some rearranging of closet space, etc. but it’s sort of bumming me out as the goal is not to live here longer than 6 months, so if the place isn’t fully unpacked within a month, it’s like why bother at all?  lol. i’m so not a material wealth maintenance doer type person.

so, the trip–which for this last weekend was the distraction from finishing unpacking. Chad didn’t get off work as early as we’d have liked so ended up fighting rush hour traffic in Houston for hours. by some swing of grace or luck the dallas show was to go off late, as EA updated me as i sweated out houston traffic. when we …

March 10th, 2010

Dolphins

Also “participants” it seems, dolphins, has been coming up a lot. Stepping back to see what i can do, more practically, for these beings, and it occurs to me an offering of my attention and energy -re some basic but good remnder with ogree the other daY regarding giving attention being just that, to stop and offer oneself to the other being/s to offer a link and energy via synthesis as well as whatever else one may offer. So a reminder has been scheduled to take time for this. Ties into getting back to original suspicion that the best i can do is not physical action but something even more direct or at least more n line with my nature / gifts. Also may be a way to connect with and learn from such conscious and loving beings.

March 1st, 2010

family photos found

which reminds me, I finally got ahold of some digital versions of the pictures of my grandparents we found and were given while in north dakota. i’d *never* seen pictures of my grandparents this young. really a neat experience.

I didn’t even know that gma and gpa W knew each other when they were so young. This is a high school graduation picture:

We were going through old photo albums to put together a collection for the open house birthday celebration for g-ma’s 90th, and came across so many wonderful snapshots.

Spending time with grandma for her birthday -going up there- was so great and rich in many ways. It was wonderful and weird to see her house again, exactly as I remembered it –the attic steps smelled the same -Nick and I both said that, but it was all smaller, as Nick had said it seemed when he’d been up there a few years …

February 25th, 2010

motivate the inner ear creeping death and crystal clear

[today's SRT is a lyric from SP>Incision, not so random after all, but first things first]

Managed to get away for the ND trip. Must post more on that once I get more of a breather. The moment I flew back it was rush-rush to the Houston show, then one blessed day of sleep (after about 4 hours per for about 5 too many days), then leisurely-rush to the Dallas show, then rush-rush back to picking up on a hugely beneficial and stressful work project. have this fucked up head/chest-congestion, burning lungs thing that Ni was suffering from in ND. could be worse but weird fuzzy blanket feeling. signing off after extremely long, and mentally taxing work day… want to post about our SP experiences before crashing.

Chad and I shouting across the apartment to each other as I unpack, re-pack for our ‘week of SP’. Bits about the trip and grandma’s birthday celebration, his work. back and forth, zipping around …

December 10th, 2009

The Fall, revisited

Always a lover of books, but having neglected taking in some new ones until recently, I’ve been getting a lot out of Gurdjieff [interjected with] Ouspensky [injerjected by] Mouravieff {I’ll get back to reading those too, just a more interesting selection on the night table for a while} – and these have been great for sort of coming round full circle ; getting back to introspection-proper – the ways I liked to spend my time thinking about myself and the world before the practical survival stuff of adult life took center stage. This post relates to some new insight about older OBEs and mostly one particular dream that has been left suspended for want of fitting analysis and meaning, until now..

I don’t imagine that I’m completely unique in this regard, but as a young child and here and there as the years go by I’ve enjoyed tapping into mind and mental organization. Just sitting and tuning into information as …

May 4th, 2009

Hoodie Tug from the Beyond

[imagine eerie sound to go with title]

As I’m walking with Chad to see a movie I felt this tug on the hood of my sweatshirt hanging down behind me. It was strong enough that it could not be dismissed as twig falling or other ‘likely’ explanation –strong enough that I sort of scuttle walked a bit faster for a few steps as I turned to see if someone was behind me. If I had to label the strength of the tug I’d say it was exactly strong enough that I cannot doubt its having happened. Of course there was no one there and no people or obstacles for such to hide behind anywhere near our path, so WTF was it?

Well, on first intuitive match, as I run through past experiences for anything even remotely similar is my run-ins with the Blue People. Ok, so there aren’t really any blue people, but this is a term I use to explain …

January 11th, 2009

Making ego my bitch, not you

K, so I don’t actually wanna dominate my ego, twas merely a riffing on some others’ problems with my strong opinions – I’m just as opinionated about myself as I can be in commenting on others’ behavior, so shove it… and really doesn’t have much to do with this post after all. . . unless you make it to the end at which point we’ll see if I tie it back together.

Though I’ve had The Sirens of Titan on some loosely kept, mental list of liked books, as a number-1 even, it’s been at least 14 years since I read it.

I just got to my favorite part: the part where Unk finds the list of ‘things he knows for sure’. We (the readers) find it inspiring that Unk has the sheer spirit/drive/gumption to keep remembering his past though he’s been brainwashed 7 times. And the ability to keep developing his philosophy –about everything, which at this point in the …

August 17th, 2007